tts the new one

ok not hate, i find myself not able to like a girl very easily, my basic emotion for  girl is not ‘like’, so if my first impression of her is bad, then that’s the end. i knew some girls recently, just incase they can come upon this (which is highly unlikely), i shall not specify who they are. they made me realise why i do not like girls so much, clingy, whiny, selfish, act-chio, act-cute, i think i saw all in one today. and i was so turned off. and then i thought of my own friends, truthfully i have v few girl friends, but friends whom im proud of, who are independent, sensitive, diligent, classy, sophicated ladies. not a bunch of wannabes.

it’s so hard to find a girl, any girl whom i can say “how i wish i can be like her”, ok set aside hollywood stars or business elites la. i realise the last time i made a good female friend was almost 2.5 yrs ago. amazing.

when i say i think i like guys more than girls as friends, its not that im flirty, or trying to gain attention, but i there are so maany things i hate about girls. i know i myself am not a very ‘girl-ly’ kind of girl, to some extent i think like guys, behaves like one too at time,  good or bad for u to judge. but today suddenly i missed the making of a new girl friend, maybe it was me who was being too cold and kept shunning people away and came up with lame excuses to keep them out of my circle. but i dunno how to like a person when something abt her just irritates me so much.

tts why i wanna treasure my girl friends now, cus they are in one way or another my role models. also looking forward to the next better player, haha.

she just left early for work again, im all alone at home tonight. not for the first time, but strangely the first time ever that it felt this quiet.

pardon the fat arm! i dont really care!

it was amazing, you HAVE to watch it. and don’t go n buy popcorn n nachos shits to distract u. AND, always pee before you go in. lol

omg omg omg im so gonna watch it again!

im so bored at work, the freaking admin can u unblock facebook PLEASE

you are on one line, i am on the other, maybe it’s the same line, and we are at either end of this long string, maybe we get tangled, in knots in knots in knots in knots in knots in knots in knots in knots in knots in knots in knots in knots in knots in knots in knots in knots in knots in knots  in knots in knots in knots in knots in knots in knots in knots in knots in knots in knots………………

stringing your eyes with garlands of stars i
wish to impeach you, maybe impregnate you
with a will to breathe 
(in
deep)

but what are you but an incoming breath
to me? an unapologetic zephyr gracing
my inner vineyards

ruffling the leaves with whispers

(i understand it 
isn’t so collapsible, and
i’m forgetting i forget
you)

but when the winds turn 
you’re a harlot, ruining this year’s
yield of self
(importance and confidence)

and i’m understandably drinking 
up
down
the vinegar left

trying to breathe in the lights
i gift you with – always

and i have only the stars
to thank,
the stars to blame.

work is such a fucking big bore.

we are so used of talking to each other for less than 2 minutes now, that even if we have the time now we don’t know what to say.

and i’m tired of waiting

today i saw you, the signs of exhaustion written all over your face, the deep set of dark circles surrounding your eyes mercilessly, the obvious lost of weight, for the very first time, but still trying your very best to flash your prettiest smile when you saw me, my ached so hard at that moment, so much so that i started to question myself immediately if i should just leave you to utilise as much of your available free time to really have a rest, i question myself if this is the right time to be selfish, even though i know i may regret painfully after i leave for beijing. i listened to your stories in camp, felt angry yet pitiful as the same time, i know how much i wanted you to come over my house tonight, as you have alr said and promised before, so i can hug to you tight, sayang your tired eyes, and whisper things that i almost had no time to say to you. i didnt see this last minute thing to crop up at all, i was so unwilling to say: you should go back to camp. i said that because i know that’s what an understanding gf should say, i know if i let you come finally and wake up 5am in the morning, i will not be happy at all.

you kissed me and said it’s been a long time since we had a real long kiss, i said yes, we haven’t.

i cried today, becaused i felt so sorry for myself and also for you, and im angry at myself for not abling to come out with a perfect solution, something that can probably ease the pain a lil. 

i know you are trying your best sweetie, i love you for that. looking forward to sunday now, please get more rest, ok?

it was quite amazing, sorry for the lousy 3megapix phone cam. but u can still feel the gorgeousness tho.

sth about food production, similar idea with my rida proj, just more noble. 

my pictures totally ruined the beauty of these drawings, they are simply amazing in real life.

this thing is freaking stacked up one by one with about 2 mm wood pieces. i was in awe.

same project, site model.

something abstract, beautiful but i dont get a thing

some other pretty drawings

one of my fav projects out of all.

my contact lenses totally dropped on the floor when i saw this. u gotta see to believe. 1 :100 model, about 1.5m long. with every single litle detail u can imagine.

same proj, it’s a sports place, project entitled ‘transformer’,meaning it transforms itself both physically n functionally throughout the year to cater to all activities.

the panels look amazing

but i still prefer this one. simpler but full of complexity

that’s all!

omg it’s so darn fun! playing with corel paint now. will be posting up drawings! anyway i bought it for 444 at the IT fair, outside should be selling at 5 hundred plus. so it’s a steal!

went to the City Exhibtion today too, to look at the gorgeous year 5 architecture students’ thesis works. posting pics soon. too tired to do that now.

oh and i caught drag me to hell too, wad a huge disappointment man.